Saturday, July 30, 2005
Mental Sickness and Emptiness
I was in bed almost the whole day. My head throbbed in pain, neither with cold or fever, but from a late night of playstation's FIFA soccer. Not that I was addicted or was the game so exciting, I just felt emptiness - a lot of it. And it spilled over to my Saturday - life seems meaningless and purposeless. The mid-morning storm plays its part keeping me indoor; no studying at fast food restaurant, no jogging and definitely no swimming - nobody visits a pool with a umbrella in hand. So it was just lazing and dazing around for me, prompting more headache. And you really began to think you are physically sick, when you clearly know it is all mental. How pathetic life can get and this is only just the beginning, I suspect.