Life sucks at time. Nobody is surprised? - I know. You try damn hard to make things right, but with one stroke, someone would come along and spoil you day. And you have to start the whole thing all over again. Humans - they are pathetic, nosey, selfish and basically all things imperfect. You can deal with them every single day, yet have no idea what shits they can throw at you - the downside of unpredictability perhaps?
I have been trying to make things work between me and my immediate boss - The Screamer/Schemer - who everyone loves to hate and by some miracle, it was actually working. But she had to demonstrate to me that the progress I had made is just a flash in the pan. The bridge of trust and respect I held for her had been utterly burnt in the process. And I really don't know how long I can hold on before getting advice from my manager. I know that would look like an acceptance of defeat which my pride has restrained me from doing so this far. Or perhaps it is time for me to make my exit...
PS: To cheer myself up, I had planned for a dinner with friends on Friday evening, and messaged or MSNed my friends. Finally, my personal favourite entry for 2005 - Grandma and Fireflies - was picked for a re-read.
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