Freedom of Mind

I do wish for more freedom - freedom to do what I want to do with my life, freedom to love, freedom to exercise my own time - and it is all in the mind. There is always the fear of the unknown, the fear of failure - nothing is guaranteed success. And I may fall too fast, hit the ground and never fly again - mentally shattered, that is why, if you know what I mean. Sometime, I think that I would be so happy if I will to have Cynthia in love with me. So happy that I would be too weak to walk this earth alone. The feeling of having my existence justified by another fellow human being is foreign and too vulnerable to be reliable. Perhaps that only reflects the sorry state of our modern society.